Tuesday, January 12, 2010
DO THE SPRINKLER!
........EEEEEEEEEEEE EIGHTY FUCKING POUNDS HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!
Okay XD YES I realize it TODAY of all days, when I've gone up a little bit (HOORAH WATER WEIGHT or something) but OMFG. I'm starting to feel better, and actually HAPPY now. Plus, I was cracking up when reading all the comments, thinking, "INTERNATIONAL PRETTYWRECK CELEBRATORY DANCE!" So now I'm return dancing for all of you. And just for how awesome you guys are in DOING the wiggle dance for me yesterday, I solemnly vow that I, PrettyWreck, will at some point, post up a video or something of me doing the sprinkler. Yes, you read that right. I will post a video, or an animated gif, or something, of me doing the sprinkler, or the white boy dance. Or something. It'll be part of a progress post, most likely, when I get closer to my goal (WHICH IS NOW SO CLOSE I CAN TAAAASTE IT).
I'm now 117.4, which is GOOD considering I thought I'd jump up to like, 119 or something. Not sure why. But I think I need to hit the gym tomorrow or something, because I have a feeling I'm going to suddenly sky rocket for some reason. OHNOS WORRISOME.
Also. THURSDAY NIGHT/FRIDAY MORNING IS MY FINAL FUCKING NIGHT WORKING GRAVEYARD SHIFTS.
This means it will be HARDER to hide my disorder, but this also means that I will NOW BE AWAKE DURING THE FUCKING DAY.
I CAN HAVE A LIFE AGAIN, YOU GUYS.
IT WILL BE AMAZING.
I've also realized that I am very unfortunately shaped.
I have a lot of excess skin that I need to fix. And I need to get my boobs done, and very soon. I hate my boobs. But I have a very round rib cage. It's very LARGE. And I'm kind of starting to show some ribs, but I'm still fat. Which is confusing to my brain. Because I know my thighs are still like, massive. But...my stomach is now curved in under my ribs. But it's still a floppy belly. I think it's a lot of skin. I mean, it was ballooned out an extra ten inches, but still. Very unfortunately shaped. I just have to do lots of exercising to try and tighten up the skin, which utterly sucks. That's apparently harder than losing the weight. YAY for me :\
Also, I'm still really god damned tired, but wide awake. I feel A MILLION times better. I actually slept like the dead, without any pain, yesterday, which was such a wonderful feeling. But I really didn't want to wake up. So I'm going to bed early today,a nd hoping I get enough sleep before work.
And a friend comes in from Washington/Oregon (I forget where she lives right now. S he moves a lot) to visit this weekend, and it just so happens that I have a threeday weekend. And I start my new shift Monday, meaning I'll have to start waking up at noon, anyway, so I'll be awake when she is. And I'll get to see her. And I'll get to PLAY.
I turn 23 in 14 days.
I wonder if I can be down to 116 by then?
That would be very awesome.
I want to do something fun this birthday. Since...I don't even remember what the fuck I did for my last one. Too insecure, and living too much of a boring life. Hooray.