My eating hurts now.
So much. So fucking much going into my mouth.
I just binged to the point of feeling in pain. Where I was shaking. I broke down in tears begging myself to stop. Not because of weight.
But because I thought my stomach was going to explode.
Days and days of this now.
No more.
This hurts too much.
Ugh.
Time to make myself feel this hunger thing again.
I will not be eating myself sick every chance I get for my 23rd birthday.
It's on the 26th.
I will not be like this.
I will start my 23rd year in a HAPPY way.
Hoorah.
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hey just stopping by to tell you that u're doing great,don't let these moments affect u.. this hunger thing is maybe the best feeling I have ever felt (pathetic as it may sound) and you know that. Stay Strong*
ReplyDeletexoxo :)
Baby......
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry.....
I its guess its done now... no point stressing over it hey... just focus on being well for your birthday xo its only 4 days away!
ReplyDeleteYou will do it! Hungry will be the best present for your birthday :)
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You have to promise to stop gorging yourself sweetheart. I know you can reach your goals if you really put your mind to it.
ReplyDeleteCiao, Fiona
I haven't signed into my blog in days, weeks...almost a month and somehow yours is the first one I was compelled to check in on. Happy belated birthday, you energizer bunny, you. Take care of yourself. I'm always supporting you. *BigBearHug*
ReplyDeleteI just wanted you to know that you inspire me. Things might seem tough now, but whenever you're feeling really down just remember that :)
ReplyDeleteWe miss you... you've you gone? Hopefully you're OK.
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