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I am so freaking exhausted.
I don't know why. I didn't really do anything major yesterday.
I had like...at least 6 hours of sleep.
I took my adderall, an excedrin for my back, and a cafeinne and vitamin B-Complex/Green Tea supplement pill.

I'm normally wired at this point.
It's seriously hard for me to get out of bed.


My back pain is easing up. I can breathe again without the pressure. I can also apply pressure to the areas where the kidneys are without intense pain. I'm thoroughly convinced that last shooting feeling was just me having pulled my muscles, since I did some badass back exercises, and with my spine being all wonked like it is, it makes the area super sensitive. I mean, it doesn't deplete the other symptoms, and I know I have to go get it checked. 1 in 9 people have kidney problems, most of which go undetected. And the migraine meds I've taken in the past are known for causing serious problems with them. They actually used to make my kidneys hurt, which is why it's awesome that I don't need to take them anymore.

So I'm going to go get tested. I don't want to. I'm scared of it, and I think I'm over reacting. But...when I can't have my dad pop my back in that region without serious pain, and just...the other things? Yeah.
Blah.
It's most likely nothing.
Just me freaking out, because of my families medical history XD
I scare myself waaaaaaay too easily.



Anyway, iluall.
I haven't made an appointment yet. I will soon, and tell you all what happens.

♥

Stay strong.
Never give up. Never give in. Never let them see you cry. And never let them take you alive.
We are awesome, my loves!