Monday, June 15, 2009
But if you unplug everything, you hear that high pitched empty room hum. And the whispers come.
Was at a plateau. About 152.6 or thereabouts. Yesterday, I ate around 300 calories and was at the gym working out for over 2 hours straight, until by the time I got into the shower, I was actually shaking too hard to close the door on my first try. This morning, I was 151.4. Not amazing, but still, it means I had loss this week, and not just a maintaining.
I need to still lose 9 pounds in the next 16 days to meet my goal for this month. That means hard, hard work. But I've been slacking with the gym, and I can't do that anymore.
Although I love the feel of impending malnutrition, in that love/hate sort of way. It always starts in my shoulders. After a few days of being well nourished, when I start to starve, I become wide awake. Buzzed, like I just snorted lines of coke. My mind doesn't seem to stick to one thing, and then I begin to ache. First in my shoulders, threatening to turn into a migraine. Then down my arms. By the time it reaches my legs, nothing will take away but a good nights sleep and some food, but I can keep it put off for at least three to four days by eating just enough to stop the migraine from forming.
Of course, it will inevitably hit if I don't pick up my calories. Sometimes, I can try to keep it away, but it doesn't always work as well.
I'm under 100 calories for the day so far, and that was only to stop the malnourishment migraine from kicking in earlier. Two slices of insta-bacon for 35 cals, and 1/4 of a 70 calorie bagel. I'm going to have a psuedo calzone for lunch, which is 179 calories, and then I have some cheese I"m going to have before the gym.
Another day of working to about 600 calories on one of the machines, and then weights and more aerobics until I'm shaking too hard to close the shower door proper on my first try. That's how the rest of the week gets to go, and then maybe a bit of a break for a day or two, and then yeah...
Do you guys count liquid calories?
Like...a gatorade? Or if I have a juice box or something? Is that counted in your daily in take?
I had a yoohoo. Like, not the big bottle, but a small box of it for lunch boxes, and I'm wondering if you guys would count that?