And I thought what's the point? I just got tired. I looked in the mirror, and saw myself, as fat as always. I know the rest of this weight that will come off now? Every ten pounds will count. Because there was so much there before, that now that I have stripped off so much now I will be getting down to the pieces that matter.
But still...still I was so tired, and I looked in the mirror, and I opened up my thinspo quote journal, and found these...
- Do not think of today's failures, but of the success that may come tomorrow. You have set yourself a difficult task, but you will succeed if you persevere & you will find a joy in overcoming obstacles.
- Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up
- Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle.
- They always say they're concerned about me, about my health, when all they want to do is control me. They want to pin me down & force-feed me with lies, with what they call love. Like prisoners everywhere, all I have left is the power to refuse.
- Without discipline, there is no life at all.
So I thought I'd share some of those with you, because I think while they didn't make the binge better, or the shit my day just went to, they at least helped make it more tolerable.
Stay strong, ladies.
And wish me luck.
I think I need it.
Because all I feel like I can do right now is fail.
(Sorry for all the downer posts)
"Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle." I like this one because it applies to me so much when I binge. I'll restrict and restrict and I'll stay the same weight, then I binge and lose 2-4 lbs. I don't know, my body is crazy. But the message it soo true. I'm having a bad bingish day too, but remember that its just a blip in the journey and looking back a week from now you'll totally forget it.
ReplyDeleteGood luck.
ReplyDeleteYou can do better tomorrow.
"Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle."
I also love that quote. I need to write it somewhere.
I really like those and I think my favorite is:
ReplyDeleteMany of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up
I feel like that is where I'm at, so close to success, but I'm ready to give up. I will not give up and neither will you, we'll get there!
Good Luck, I think we both need a little now
good to hear your feeling slightly better,
ReplyDeletequotes always help me too,
they help me realise that tomorrow is a new day,
and I can fix what I did,
hope your okay :) xx
Because I'm hopelessly rational... your first justification-- that you're getting down the crucial pieces-- was my favorite :)
ReplyDeleteYou're not a failure-- and that feeling can be crushing... if you need anyone to talk to, you can email me at linab93@gmail.com
Those are lovely quotes - I've actually never heard them before.
ReplyDeleteand you got a special thank you in my newest blog for your comment on the last one. :)
I binged too. I thought I was doing great but then suddenly. But I think it's because I had something way too sweet. Cakes, muffins, frosting... maybe there is something that triggers your binges too?
ReplyDeleteDon't worry too much, you'll get back on track in no time (if you haven't already, seeing that this comment is 4 days too late >_<) but I was wondering whether you had those songs in your playlist in mp3 fomat? I like courage a lot, just love it. My email is gudbjorggsm@hotmail.com if you could send them, and maybe chat. Best of luck to you.