Prepare your stomach.
For starters; Borris - thank you so much for the comment you left. It meant a lot to me ♥
And everyone else, you know I adore you all, too!
Okay, I found three videos I have to share with you guys. They...freak me out a little ^^;
Great motivation to not eat.
Also, for some reason, I keep thinking when I go to step on the scale, "It'll probably be at 158.6" instead of "138.6". Because I guess my mind forgets that I am this low, or equates my frustration and self loathing with when I was 20 pounds heavier. And while I know there has to be a difference, I don't really see it.
Anyway. There was a trainer who flirted with me at the gym and asked me out to dinner. It's a guy. I told him so long as it was just as friends, and he said yes. But yesterday, he called me while I was sick and after I had taken an ambien, nyquil, and some prozac (and still I barely slept more than three hours...my insomnia is getting seriously out of hand) and he told me, "I know you're really struggling with losing weight. I see you there all the time, you know? So instead of dinner, how about I give you some complementary sessions, and we can hang out after, you know?"
I told him sure. Who am I to turn down free sessions? XD