
Two drums and symbol fall off of a cliff.
"Ba-dum, CHSHH!"
(That's the sound of them falling, as well as the classic sound of a punchline drum thing. It's much better when said out loud. Especially when two drunk guys are trying to tell you it and keep botching it. Anyway.)
I have lost 9 pounds in 20 days.
I guess that's supposed to be fast. It doesn't feel fast. Not when every ounce is a struggle. I feel emotionally and physically exhausted. I'm looking through my pen and ink book describing everything, and it's amazing how abusive I can be toward myself. I'm normally a happy person, but since this...THING has taken over my head, I can't be happy. I don't like it.
I know I should change it, but I keep saying, "Justa little more. It's worth it for now."
I have two weeks to lose 5 pounds. I want to be close to my last "low weight" for pride festival. Because it'll mean that I'll have lost 30 pounds between last pride and this one. And it's not a lot of weight to have lost, considering how much I need to. I don't even want to say it here, because it's so far removed from what other people have.
I need to pull up Pandora and listen to music.
WORK IS BORING YO.
Loosing 30 pounds is amazing and you should be proud of yourself when you reach that. Think of it this way: there are plenty of people who can't even force themselves to loose 1 pound.
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